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amehstyles

----
amy nguyen
22059X;MSJ;LOVESHIM
i'm real & this is how i roll.
the girl is boisterous;
rarely serene.
Bona fide when she
has to be; she likes to
think of herself as adroit;
she hates her mercenary
attitude that sometimes
takes control; sometimes
she just wants to be the
villain, not the hero;
her heart is impaired;
her attitude to athletics
is clearly lethargic;
she is raucous;
she just wants to be
absolve.

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Friday, December 25, 2009
#121 - That time of the year again

Merry Christmas,

have a great one ! xo

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It really does sadden me from time to time, with the morbid thought that Christmas has lost all meaning. Christmas in the year 2009 has connotations no more than Christmas lights, materialistic pricey presents and rushing to West-fields to spend hundreds on toys, clothing, perfume and jewelry.

Following Christmas comes one of my favourite, then again in ways hated days of all time. New Years. Finally, you can let go of all the shit that's happened and move the fuck on to a new and fresh year. It's exciting, yet at the same time it manages to twist my insides. Burning me with sensations that quite possibly it's just another year to mess up. Sometimes letting go is hard, and a new year is just what you need to do it - which is what i'm hoping thats what '10 will be good for. Because honestly, i'm sick of this year. Really really am. 

Anyway i'm out guys, catchup blog later.
Wishing you all the best times today,
go get drunk, get laid,
and get fucked >=D !

hahha, merry christmas.

PS I HATE PEOPLE

WHO WRITE XMAS.

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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
#120- Fucked up.


I can never really make you, or anyone else happy.
I give up.

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#119- Dreams or Nightmares

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So i've been having nightmares, each night a clue to the next. And every other night, a nightmare about a family member.
It deeply saddens me this is my perception on my family, a hurtful group out to get me.
Sigh, funny huh.

Blood is thicker than water,
i guess blood is thinning.

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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
#118- Doubt

I'll do anything to keep the thought of you from my mind


I'm sick of making up excuses of why i feel this way. I hate it so much, always full of doubt and negative thoughts. It really brings me down sometimes. Don't even know what i'm doing sometimes. Sometimes i just wanna run out of your lives like a drop of a dime. If you ponder why you love me sometimes, maybe you should just not.

Anyway, catchup with my life. Lily spent the last two days with me, it's nice to see an old friend. Although perhaps what saddens me is the fact that we've botch changed so much. For the hour that we spent on the balcony, i felt content with everything.
Free from the stress of daily hassles. I was free, and happy. Young and smiling. As the lights dissolved in the darkness, so did my heavy thoughts.

Anyway, i'm feeling so down right now. I just really.. hate everyone again.

But on a brighter note,
I seriously can't wait till Jeff&Ben come to sydney, i really love them both-
they give me endless amounts of laughter and happiness :)



12;08 am,
ps amy, remember to smile,
even if you don't mean it.
xo

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I love Lily :)

Lily is my lover. forever

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Monday, December 21, 2009
#117- pulling through

Families are just enemies

who don't have enough guts

 to hurt you

Girl, you need to pull yourself together- and smile a little. Don't let them get to you and bring you down, cause you know you deserve the world. Your beautiful- unique and understanding.
--
love you .
x


Cupcakes awlays cheer me up, i think i might need some soon.

The other night was the wrost night of my life, really - literally it was.






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Sunday, December 20, 2009
#116- alone

be my escape
 Thanks for caring,
and letting go.


but i can only hope that goodbye was enough for all the memories;
and wish you for the best.

Smile cause i said so.

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Saturday, December 19, 2009
#115- abscence

the best girl in your life is about to walk out the door
 
Home, finally home and blogging

 I just got home from my cousin Emily's birthday-
Something about family really saddens me, perhaps it's because the thought that familys are nothing more than a bunch of people binded together by the simple fact that they have to be. Blood relations- do they really mean anything? We have nothing more in common and similarities other than the same last names and facial features.

Families are the people you lean on when your friends aren't there.
Their meant to be the ones you turn to for trust and support, but that's not how i see my family. 

Don't get me wrong, i love my immediate family- but that's about it.
Blood is thicker than water- but everyone else doesn't even exist.

I never smiled in the pictures, no matter how pretty or pink my dress was. I looked like i was going to cry. If i was even looking at the camera at all. Was never the flower girl, or the center of attention. Just another little girl in the crowd.

I hate my family, i hate the fact that i don't trust them.
I hate when they touch or make contact with me.
My absence of affection hurts me.

I'm feeling sad lol.

Today was a wasted day.
I thought it was going to be productive, but it really wasn't.

I havn't spent a day at home in the holidays- atleast i'm making the most of it.

fuck i'm emo, night world.

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Friday, December 18, 2009
#114 - restartting

scratch me out, erase me






Only a few days left till christmas, hmph.
Then new years, yay a new start.

i'm cleaning my room, well attempting too anyway.
getting there ..
xo
3;09am

ps.


to jeff and ben, i love you

like brothers


i can't wait until you come

visit us


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Thursday, December 17, 2009
#113- Karol

you make me feel so aliveeeeeee

So recently, i got in touch with a long lost friend Karol. It's been yearrrrs, fucking back in the ray truong days. I'm glad half my friends don't even bring that shit up, because it is pretty fucking embarrassing LOL ! I laugh thinking about him. Was a rough time then.
But shit's good now, especially since
 i FOUND YOU KAROL. I FOUND YOU BITCH !

Your beautiful, hopefully we can catch up this holidays.
I forgot how much  i miss you,
but now i remember,
and it's alot <3

love you babes,
here for you always
x

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